People you don't like

Is there anyone in your life that you just absolutely dislike, yet can't hide and run and can't stand to face them? I do.

For some reason, these people that you don't like, the more you dislike them, the more they are to stay and more irritating they become. The fact that they are breathing the same air is almost unbearable to you. I know, pretty extreme, but that's how I am, unfortunately.

It's interesting that these people need to ask what they did wrong. Surely they know? What do you tell them? hm.. I don't like your personality. You are annoying, you cram my style, you... why go there? Isn't it enough that I don't want to be your friend? Can't you just accept it? No? well, too bad.

Boredom

I seem to get bored REALLY easily. Growing up, I always joked that I have a longevity issue. Little did I know then how true it is. I can get into things really quickly (other than cleaning the house, exercising and anything that's physically extenuating of course), and I get out of it just equally fast. Later in life, after I started working, I learned that I tend to get a lot done when I'm under pressure and have a lot to do. I can't understand that. I need a hobby, a non-money costing hobby that will allow me to have fun and at the same time keep myself occupied enough that I don't constantly looking for other things to do,.

Brave Enough to Say No

I've always had the illusion that I'm brave, courageous and don't give a hoot about what anyone thought about me, good or bad. But recently, I realized, I care so much that I'm really a people pleaser. I want people to see the very best of me and when they mention my name, they would only say positive things. That hasn't always worked out, in fact, plenty of times, I've had "run ins" with difficult people. I'm sure that others have had more of these runs ins than me, and I know that others went on with their lives without a backward glance, but not me. I think and relive those moments voluntarily. Can't seem to let go. I'm a people pleaser. So much so that I don't set clear boundaries with people. I expect them to know it, like common sense. Those that don't have any, continue to push me, to a corner, until I decide to leave, completely from the friendship.

A good friend recently opened my eyes to this, indirectly. She hasn't always been the most popular person and sometime ago, was the topic of everyone around us and always with negative connotation, yet she never cared. She went on living her life and ignored those that talk behind her back, passing judgements upon her left and right. Today, she's the one standing, high and tall and happy. Made me realize that I need to be like that. Forget what others say about you. Those that talk about you, especially those behind your back, aren't worth your time. I see it now.. So, no more saying yes, no more people pleasing.